desperado

1. Huge setbacks. I can be good ALL week and then one binge day will ruin it all. If I eat 1,500 calories for 6 days, that is (-500 cals x 6 = -2,500). Then, with a 4,000 calorie day (+ 2,500), I completely eliminate my good work done during the week.

2. Food is only temporarily relief. The problem is still there once I stop eating. In fact, bingeing only makes the problem LARGER because now I feel fat and guilty.

3. Damage to my body and my self-esteem.

4. Nothing worse than waking up “full” then next morning and spending the next 2 days feeling gross.

5. I can’t keep living in this binge cycle. It has to be broken–by me!

6. I want to fit into my tight jeans, my shorts, and look good once summer arrives. If I continue eating this way, that won’t happen.

7. On the days I binge, I don’t work out, which makes the bingeing all the more worse.

8. I HAVE willpower. I need to use it. I need to learn to recognize and eliminate my triggers. Otherwise, I feel horrible and as if I am controlled by food.

9. If I resist, I will be HAPPY. Not depressed, like I am now.

10. Enough is enough. Time to get rid of this disorder. Time to be normal.

I may not be able to do it alone, but with help from the nutritionist who I am seeing Thursday, I WILL get through this. Each day is a battle, and though I may have lost yesterday, I can still win today. And tomorrow. And next week, next month, and for the rest of my life.